thank you for waiting for me, and for teaching me that patience is love. honestly, you really didnt have to, and im sorry im sorry im sorry if waiting for me meant prolonging the pain (though its still fucking unfair youre so resilient, so fucking unfair i didnt realise you were in pain until it… Continue reading brave heart
Tag: personal
It’s cloudy tonight
I think I've been doing it for close to a decade now? Finding a comfortable spot outdoors, pouring myself a glass of wine (or a cup of hot chocolate), and staring at the stars in the late hours of the night on two occasions: the Perseids, most visible during August, and the Geminids, which appear… Continue reading It’s cloudy tonight
ETA: whenever’s serendipitous
The biggest takeaways, I think, for my 26th year (and the first half of 2021 -- overlapping save for 6 days), are these: time is weird, but/and you'll know when you're ready. It's not been a secret how horrible last year was, for everyone. The world came to a halt even as infections increased, and… Continue reading ETA: whenever’s serendipitous
This isn’t anything, right?
The first time you told me you dreamt of me after I told you I dreamt of you, I thought -- well, it can't be anything, right? We've just been talking fairly constantly, our ears extensions of each other's mouths (or, more accurately, our fingers connected at the tip as we talk and talk and… Continue reading This isn’t anything, right?
Updates:
Life has been a series of grim events lately -- more black than white, less light and more shadows: creeping, lurking, just waiting to pounce. I have not been in a while but recently I have been even less so: happy. I miss conversations, hugs, and music that I share with friends over beer, or… Continue reading Updates:
the 1: Just thought I’d let you know
I'm doing good, I'm on some new shit Been saying "yes" instead of "no", I thought I saw you at the bus stop, I didn't, though. Well, not really. I haven't been on any shit at all; it's been the same past few days, past few weeks, past few months. With the pandemic a… Continue reading the 1: Just thought I’d let you know
You were good to me
in all ways, Nami. No one would get my moods better than you do: my random decisions to stay in despite having promised to go on walks or runs, my spontaneous desires to play basketball while you run around the court, chasing birds and sunlight, you understood it all. Remember when Chopper… Continue reading You were good to me
(Trying to) find joy in confined spaces
The pandemic has hit us all; in different ways, in various magnitudes, in contrasting extents. And the truth is, many of us are just not in the best headspace to be okay. And while that's a hard pill to swallow; now, of all days (with my birthday looming in a few hours), I have… Continue reading (Trying to) find joy in confined spaces
The wisdom of the youth
With the emergence of the pandemic, and the countless other issues that people face -- the Black Lives Matter movement in America (and elsewhere in the world), the standing with Hong Kong against China's policies, a looming dictatorship in the country that yearns to penalise dissent -- I have seen with my very eyes the… Continue reading The wisdom of the youth
No such thing as back to normal
It is extra difficult to grieve in quarantine: you wish for consoling hugs and get instead characters on the internet sharing compassion; you wish to see bodies of loved ones who passed and get instead urns with their remains; you wish to give your final goodbyes and get instead a reminder to not touch, not… Continue reading No such thing as back to normal
Of perpetual finds 